Sounds of laughter shades of life are ringing through my open ears

Words are flying out like
endless rain into a paper cup
They slither while they pass
They slip away across the universe
Pools of sorrow waves of joy
are drifting thorough my open mind
Possessing and caressing me

Every time I watch Across the Universe, I find myself relating to it in a different way. This time, I saw that the tone of the movie as it progresses could be overlaid upon the past year of my life.

My senior year of college began with much confusion, much excitement, and complete instability. I watched my plans for my life be swallowed up by the churning sea of unrealized dreams. It was a long journey out of depression, and I began to be pleasantly surprised at feeling happy.

As I was accepted by my new homes, I found ways of hiding hurt and putting on a mask of "that fun, goofy girl." Slowly, though, the feelings I showed without started to sink their way into my heart, purging the darkness. God knows what He's doing. Always has.

I spent my 22nd birthday at a friend's funeral. Never saw it coming. It still makes me cry, even now. The play Dead Man's Cell Phone seems to have some relevance in my life now.

I feel confident and whole again. It won't fix the missed opportunities or the mistakes made, but they are learned lessons now. Thank you, Lord. For everything.